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So depressed right now. I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight because today I found out that yet another YouTube channel I'd found out about (thanks to Quidd) and kinda wanted to check out eventually is controversial - SSSniperWolf. And knowing about this makes me keep thinking about the Etika and cobanermani456 things again and worrying that I'll be hated for liking any of these channels, or wanting to see more of their videos (or any of their videos, as I haven't actually watched SSSniperWolf yet). Same thing with YouTube channels that became controversial before this year like PewdiePie and JonTron...

Are any of you going to dislike or judge me for wanting to see these channels? If not, please say so even if you feel like you'd be repeating something you've already said. I can't take this depression much longer...

Could someone more emotionally stable than me please research what these controversies are really all about and tell me what actually happened? (EDIT: I should clarify, I mean aside from the PewdiePie and JonTron ones as I think I know what those were about... but is it lame that I had no idea until I asked someone about those?) I've tried looking them up myself but didn't get far because a) it made me depressed easily and b) I know that I'm going to hear at least two sides to each story and not know which one is actually true, and be hated if I think the one that isn't true is true (which I'm told I have done already regarding cobanermani456).

https://www.mariowiki.com/Mary_O._and_Yamamura:_The_Movie

"Mary O. and Yamamura: The Movie^[1] is an upcoming live-action film based loosely on the game Super Mario Maker and especially the online Super Mario Maker: Crash Course comic series starring Mary O. and Yamamura on said game's official website. The movie was first mentioned by Yamamura at the end of episode 7 of said comics, but was originally believed by fans to be a one-off joke and not an actual upcoming film, especially since Mary O. immediately denies the existence of such a movie; however, in March 2018, Mary O. and Yamamura was confirmed to be an actual movie when Nintendo released an official teaser trailer on their YouTube channel^[2]. The film is scheduled to be released in November 2018."

"Nothing is known about the plot thus far - or indeed, if it is possible for such a movie to have a plot - but it is confirmed that Mary O. will be played by Irish singer-songwriter Enya Brennan, and"

"but it is confirmed that Mary O. will be played by Irish singer-songwriter Enya Brennan, and"

"Mary O. will be played by Irish singer-songwriter Enya"


Whuh-- Buh-- Juh-- Zuh-- Gqxuh--

DID I READ ANY OF THAT RIGHT?!

There's going to be a movie with MARY O. in it?!?

Played by ENYA?!?! :D :D :D

I'm fanboying so much right now that I'm fanGIRLing!... yeah okay, I guess that makes no sense whatsoever, but oh well. :P


Wait... how can this movie even exist?? I thought Nintendo and Illumination were already working on an animated Mario movie – is Nintendo working on the animated movie AND Mary O. & Yamamura at the same time for some reason? And as much as I like the Super Mario Maker Crash Course comics, the fact remains that it's just an eight-episode-long tutorial for making good Super Mario Maker levels - how can ANYONE possibly adapt it into a full-length movie?? And how did they manage to convince Enya, of all people, to be in it as such an obscure character? Did they, like, trick her into it?

...Okay, why am I looking a gift unicorn in the esophagus? MARY O., the most underrated fictional character I know of, is going to be in a MOVIE. Played by ENYA. This is the best thing that has happened to me this decade. :D


And yes, I KNOW, I KNOW, people are upset that they didn't get a Japanese actress for Mary O., and I respect their opinions. But come on... Enya music notwithstanding, I never thought my ♯1 celebrity crush OR my ♯1 fictional character crush would be in a movie whatsoever!! Now the former is going to be PLAYING the latter??

You'll probably all hate me for this (and I know I say that a lot, but I'm even more sure of it this time...), but sorry, I personally am NOT going to miss out on this movie!!

To me, this is going to be the best movie EVER!

...well, unless there turns out to be a catch to it, like maybe a certain YouTuber who makes up theories about video games that a lot of his fans take too seriously and blindly accept as fact is also in this movie or something. But that would never happen!


EDIT: Guess who they picked to do the voice of Yamamura. :(

Why didn't I see that in the article the first time? How did I manage to copy and paste the entire remainder of that sentence without noticing that it ends with "Yamamura will be voiced by Matthew Patrick of the YouTube channel Game Theory"?!

Enya being in a movie as Mary O. is still enough that I'll watch it, but WHY does MatPat have to also be in it? :(

I just looked at the interests in my profile for the first time in a while and...

WHOA. It's WAY outdated.


Homestar Runner?!

Garfield??!

MARIO?!?!

When was the last time I liked those?!



Unfortunately I can't fix it just yet either because I've been busy lately. I had enough time to come up with a new interests list:

/b/, 15, 16, 23, 300, 4, 4-8-15-16-23-42, 4chan, 42, 4815162342, 5 nights at freddy's, 69, 8, all your base, angry video game nerd, arguing, arguing about gender, arguing about politics, arguing about sports, arguments, arrow to the knee, assuming bad faith, assuming everything is homophobic, assuming everything is racist, assuming everything is sexist, assuming neurotypicals are jerks, assuming nts are jerks, atheism, avgn, ayb, ban comic sans, being a jerk, being mean, bell peppers, cake is a lie, call of duty, captain falcon, cars, chili, chuck norris, cinema sins, cinemasins, controversy, creative writing, cussing, cuss words, debates, dirty jokes, do a barrel roll, do not want, dorkly, double standards, dragonball z, dubstep, encyclopedia dramatica, essays, estj, extroverts, feminism, feminist frequency, final destination, five nights at freddy's, flame wars, flashgitz, fnaf, football, for glory, fox only, foxadhd, game of thrones, game theory, gaming sins, gamingsins, geno, grand theft auto, grudges, gta, guns, halo, hating everything, holding grudges, hoo-hah, hot-button topics, hunting, i lost the game, impromptu speeches, indexed, innuendo, innuendos, insults, internet memes, it's over 9000, it's over nine thousand, jersey shore, judging people, lettuce, little mac, lucario, malleo, matpat, matthew patrick, memes, metal gear, moral dilemmas, mr. z, mustard, no items, no wai!, o rly?, onions, overanalyzing cartoons, overanalyzing comics, overanalyzing everything, overanalyzing movies, overanalyzing video games, paint.net, photoshop, pickles, political arguments, political debates, politics, potato salad, profanity, psychcentral, public speaking, rap, research papers, rickroll, rickrolling, salad, shoop da woop, sonty mick, sports, sqrt(-garfield) memes, sromg memes, starting arguments, swearing, taking offense to everything, team fortress, team fortress 2, that's what she said, the game, the game theorists, the office, the walking dead, this is sparta, tl;dr, uncyclopedia, walking dead, weegee, weegee stare, writing essays, writing papers, ya rly, yolo, your mom, your mom jokes, yu-gi-oh, zero wing, zombies

But that's over 150 interests, and I don't have time right now to narrow it down to just 150. Hopefully I will this weekend. At least this gives you a chance to marvel at just how NOT ME my old interests list is, I guess.

And I still need to come up with a new default userpic... and like 40 or 50 new non-default userpics, and a new profile, and a new profile name...

Earlier today, I had what is probably the best idea I've ever had since... something that was a very good idea.

I've had this same journal style ("Pale Yellows" recolored to have a black background with the colors that the letters and digits in "matt1993" have in my synesthesia) since before the Forbidden Comment Threads - about 0;139 BFCTE, to be precise - long after I eventually discovered that seeing red and green text on a black background all the time started to hurt my eyes after a while. Before that, beginning at some point in 2009, it was "Pale Yellows" recolored with tetradic colors, which made it yellow, purple, blue, and bluish-green, if I remember correctly - and the entries had black text on a white background. And even further back, it was "Pale Yellows" with no changes to the colors. I know I changed the font at some point but I don't exactly remember when.

Anyway, even though I knew that the synesthesia version (at least the way I'd implemented it) started to hurt my eyes after a while and has probably been hurting your eyes for even longer than that (unless you're relatively new here), I put off changing it again for a REALLY long time. I don't really remember why.

Well, now I have a second reason to change it: I'm considering changing it back to the unmodified (palette-wise) version of Pale Yellows! It would hopefully feel like a new beginning or a return to the good old days in 2009 when my journal was actually interesting and not just a whole bunch of "It's been 3½ years and what happened in asperger still makes me feel like every word I say will be seen as racist, sexist, and homophobic..." entries! (speaking of, I feel that it's important to show you guys the newest reason I have for feeling that way... [EDIT IN 2019: Well, apparently the video is no longer there (probably for good reason), and the closest thing I could find to an archive of it is this (and I'd completely even forgotten what video I was talking about until I saw the title and was like "oh yeah, that thing"), so I guess I'll reluctantly have to describe it: ( though I'm cutting it because this was supposed to be a positive entry )

]) And I never did finish updating all of the images that are broken now that Ours Will You 1-Up is nope more - maybe seeing my old journal style will help motivate me to work on it!

I haven't changed it yet, though. I just feel the need to give you guys some sort of heads up that my journal might suddenly have a "new" style. :)

EDIT: Forgot to mention (in case anyone is like "Aw, but I liked how you worked your synesthesia into your journal style!"): It's possible that later on, I will find some other way to work my synesthesia's colors for "matt1993" into my journal style, but I will still take care to avoid having light text on dark backgrounds. My CS professors have made it all too clear to me that it's hard to read. :)


In other news, despite getting Tomodachi Life for my birthday last year, it wasn't until this month that I started getting really addicted to it. I'm saying this because the first step to finding a solution is admitting that I have a problem, so I will: My problem is that Enya probably still has feelings for Mario even though he's with Peach, and Zelda probably still has feelings for Strong Sad even though he's with Dido. LOL

STRONG SAD AND DIDO ARE DATING?!??!

Last week, as part of an assignment in Speech class, I rewatched The Mummy and watched The Ring for the first time.

Turns out that my prediction here was actually wrong - The Ring is, in fact, a lot scarier than the parody of it on Annoying Orange.


But you know what's even more terrifying than both combined?

A horror movie I watched yesterday called Worse than the Forbidden Comment Threads.

Have any of you heard of it? It's the sequel to that one movie about the guy who reads a cursed flame war that makes him start seeing nightmarish visions of his friends misinterpreting everything he's ever said and hating him for it, and seemingly, the only way for him to get rid of the visions is to make a list of everything he's said and done that might be misinterpreted and post that to his LiveJournal in friends-only entries.

I found both that one and the sequel REALLY disturbing... It's almost impossible to remember that either of them is just a movie. Maybe it's just because the main character looks kind of like me. Actually, come to think of it, he looks almost exactly like me... and he even has a lot of interests in common with me: same celebrity crush, same favorite video games...

Even the phrase "Forbidden Comment Threads" sounds familiar for some reason... Didn't I hear it somewhere before about three years ago? I remember thinking up a phrase kind of like it that had something to do with a--


O___O

...

Uhhh...

Guys...

...

I...

I just remembered...

The first one in that series was no horror movie...

I... I think I remember... the Forbidden Comment Threads...

...actually happening...

...as part of my own life...

...

I don't think the sequel was just a movie either...

...

There really is...

...something that's probably worse than the Forbidden Comment Threads...

...and I read it yesterday...

...

...

Okay, now I'm way too scared to even care whether or not going from actual horror movies to a controversy that I pretended was a horror movie is too sudden of a topic jump...

*hides and curls into the fetal position in a clearly horrified manner*


(short version of this entry: What?! The Forbidden Comment Threads are evolving!)


Somehow summon enough courage
and/or foolishness to repost
this terrifying entry

Classes start tomorrow, and I never did get to upload the newer versions of some of my userpics as userpics because I still have some unanswered questions about a couple of them (and a quickly-growing [even for me] fear that one of my comments on my previous entry is offensive). (EDIT: Quickly-growing fear averted. :) )

Also, I glanced at a few pages in my Psychology textbook. Three words: Forbidden Comment Threads. (are what a lot of the class sessions are probably going to remind me of, given all the controversy that's mentioned)

Make the controversial decision to repost this entry

I am constantly befuddled at the fact that everywhere I look online, I see people who have the amazing ability to read/listen to/participate in online drama that looks like it might be tongue-in-cheek but isn't 100% certain to be so, and not only not experience mental trauma because of it, but actually enjoy it, to the point of starting it just because it's "fun".

I'm not talking about typical trolls; I'm talking about stuff like this (a discussion thread on SROMG #1222), this (a discussion thread on LMOO #486), and especially this. There's the chance that all three of those are tongue-in-cheek, but if there's a chance that they're not, then there's a chance that those people will overanalyze anything I write in the same way. They're probably not aware of it, but the possibly joking controversy that they "enjoy" completely ruins my life whenever I read it. If the more recent ones continue like they have been, they could ruin some of my favorite webcomics, too.

And even worse, I'm the only person I know of who's affected by it in this way. I might as well call it "Matt1993's Syndrome", since I must be the only person on Earth who has it. Andy Weir of Casey & Andy (a webcomic I discovered because there's a few links to it in Irregular Webcomic!) is the only other person I know of who doesn't like political webcomics, but even he clearly doesn't have Matt1993's Syndrome, as he didn't have any problem with working political discussions in the annotations and even a few of the comics. Don't get me wrong, most of the comics cheer me up, but there's also one that's so much like the Forbidden Comment Threads that I'm not even going to try and find it just so I won't have to read that one again.

And since I'm the only one with Matt1993's Syndrome, no one's ever going to advocate for the rights of those with it... :(

I'm not sure how much sense this makes, especially given that I wrote most of it in only 5-15 minutes. I just felt that I had to rant about it. At least if it doesn't make sense, it proves another point about Matt1993's Syndrome: people (or person, anyway) with it are unable to even talk about controversy without saying something stupid.


Rant at me for weeks about some statement in this post that, with context removed, looks offensive

Today, I accidentally wrote "Pro-Life" instead of "Pro-Test" as one of the sources for my research paper despite the fact that not only are hot-button issues such as abortion off-limits for the topic for our research papers, I would've avoided them even if they had been allowed. The last time I accidentally used the wrong word in a paper in a way that could've made things go badly if I hadn't noticed was over 3 years ago - and unlike that time, it was for a real paper (not just practice for the SAT) and someone else noticed it before I did (fortunately, it was pathvain_aelien who noticed rather than my teacher, but still).

And people still think I won't regress if my mind gets too full of creative vortexes? It's clearly already started!

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I'm against SOPA for all of the same reasons that the Gods of Being Able to Voice Opinions Better than Matt1993 (e.g. LiveJournal, Wikipedia, Google, Randall Munroe, Ryan North...) are - and this is coming from a guy who usually doesn't comment on anything controversial because he either becomes depressed about what side to be on or posts about an occurrence of a number like 206 in a news article or something rather than actually discussing the issue.

In fact, until SOPA is rejected, I'm going to do a clever take on the blackouts that Wikipedia, Wikia, xkcd and Dinosaur Comics (and any other websites I don't know about yet) have done - I'll blackout as many of my userpics (well, not really blackout - I'm not sure how to describe it, so just look at the userpic on this entry) as I can before the 24th (or whenever SOPA is rejected, or - if we're too unlucky for that - SOPA is repealed after becoming law). To keep this from turning out like my attempt at replacing userpics with PSL-styled variations (i.e., not getting to finish soon enough), I'm gonna upload each one as soon as I make it. Dunno how many I'll be able to replace before the impending apocalypse the Senate begins voting on it, though...

EDIT: These are even more difficult to make than I thought! I only got four finished today, but trust me, you don't need to see 112 shadowed userpics containing somewhere from 5 to 109 SOPA jokes to see my (and LJ's, and Wikipedia's, and Google's...) point. According to Google, the White House didn't even need one. I'm still gonna make more, though!

And yes, I know my LJ isn't well-known enough for this to have much of an impact, but I'm putting the idea out there for anyone else who wants to try it.

*It's too different from our universe for it to be parallel :P

Be a DMCAbow and not a SOPAbow

Bill of Rights for people who post religious topics on the Internet

Touching video about the lack of Internet etiquette

EDIT IN 2018: Well, not only did I have to go to archive.org and replace the broken links with links to the archived versions, the video doesn't show up even in the archive of the second one, but I went to the source code to find it:



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