Whatever Matt Feels Like Posting

Made a poll for a few questions I wanted to ask regarding Character.AI, my usage of it, my journal, and some of the fandoms I've posted about. If you could take the time to fill it out I'd appreciate it. :)

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSdy_Jv44NGk_XJ97BEr-ofcURYqWKYHdgpkcpaHfkp7L-S_zw/viewform?usp=sf_link

Hello new readers! (Or if you're not a new reader: Hello again! Some of this may be familiar to you but it may still be worth reading.)

This journal is semi-friends-only, with not much consistency as to which entries are public or friends-only. But all entries linked to from this one are public.

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Bio

If this is gonna be a sticky entry I should probably include some basic information:
I'm 31, live in Texas, double majored in computer science and mathematics in college, and work as a software engineer (which I started when I was 23).
I've had this journal since I was 14.
I have autism - and for a lot of my childhood was low-functioning enough that I could hardly focus on ANYTHING other than computers, video games, other electronics, and math; and on top of that, I had a somewhat sheltered childhood. So I historically haven't always been very good at social skills - apparently even less so than most people on the spectrum, if my experiences in autism communities on LJ are any indication, so... keep that in mind. For years I've felt like I couldn't phrase anything in a way that wouldn't be misunderstood without help, and felt misunderstood even by most other people on the spectrum who knew certain topics were sensitive in the autism community long before I did (and seemingly expected me to also know).
As a result of all of that, I have a lot of social anxiety and sometimes depression. I do think my anxiety and depression have gotten better starting in mid-2023, but it's hard to say - and if you read further back than that you'll probably see a lot of posts pertaining to anxiety and depression.

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What I post about

In this journal, I post about... stuff.

It's hard for me to summarize my entire journal, for several reasons.

Firstly, I'm bad at wording in general (and for the most part it was worse when I first started this journal when I was a teenager).
Second, I've historically posted both fun stuff and posts pertaining to my anxiety/depression.
Third, I've had this journal for over half of my life and the ratio of different types of entries I post in it has fluctuated a lot since then - and so have some of my views and opinions. A lot of my past entries, my bio, userpic descriptions, etc. are in a serious need of being updated... hopefully I'll finish those updates one of these days...


But there's one thing that's remained constant throughout most of my life. And that is my love of wacky crossovers.

1) I grew up with Super Smash Bros. and still love it primarily because of all the different crossover opportunities.
2) When I learned how to take screenshots on Windows, I became obsessed with taking screenshots and writing little jokes or drawing little comics based on them. This happened to be in 2006, the same year as the peak of my obsession with Neopets and a couple years after I was first introduced to Homestar Runner, so naturally a lot of these comics were about those - ultimately spiraling into a full-on crossover webcomic with Neopets, Homestar Runner, and Mario characters, my favorite singers (especially Enya, my biggest celebrity crush ;) ), and more, known as PrtSc Land.
The webcomic itself was relatively short-lived, for too many reasons to get into here; I told myself (and my friends list) for years that eventually I would make a remake/reboot/continuation of it but never did - but regardless, my desire to have my favorite fictional characters and favorite singers interact with each other in one big multiverse lived on and I tried to make it happen in other ways.
3) I became obsessed with backwards lyrics for a time, which I enjoyed especially when I thought the "backwards lyrics" sounded like references to fandoms I enjoy.
4) There was a time I was obsessed with writing down weird dreams I had if I could remember them - and especially enjoyed writing about the wacky crossover dreams.
5) I played Tomodachi Life a lot for a while, because I could make Miis of Mario characters, Homestar Runner characters, and singers and so on and kind of pretend I was playing a game directly based on PrtSc Land.
6) I was excited about Nickelodeon All-Star Brawl and MultiVersus, because I had daydreamed about "what if my favorite non-game characters were in Smash Bros.?" for years and some of my daydreams were finally coming true.
7) And, perhaps most significantly, my newfound obsession with a website that can make ALL the wacky crossovers of my dreams (literal or figurative) come true... Character.AI.

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Character.AI

On Character.AI I can create a room where a chatbot based on Mario talks to a chatbot based on Enya. Let that sink in. I can simulate a conversation between Mario and Enya. MARIO and ENYA.
Or I can do the same thing but swap one of them out with Garfield. Or Homestar or Strong Bad. (Or MORE than two of these at a time, even - though usually I stick to two at a time.)

Any one of those possibilities alone - especially the Enya-related ones - would be enough to make me obsessed with C.AI. But that still barely scratches the surface of what's possible on C.AI, or even what *I* want to do on C.AI. They have loads more fictional characters and celebrities beyond that. They have BASICALLY EVERY FANDOM I'VE EVER BEEN INTERESTED IN. (Except for like four or six. But even those are probably just a matter of time!)

I tried to make a list of just the characters that *I* wanted to try out and ended up with literally thousands on that list. And I'm curious as to what every single character on that list thinks of everyone else on that list, no matter how wacky the combinations may get. That means MILLIONS of possible combinations!! Though obviously I want to see some of those combinations more than others. :)

So it's no surprise that Character.AI has become by far my favorite thing to post about. I'll still probably post about other things too occasionally, but it's safe to say that having characters from every franchise I enjoy* communicate with each other via AI has basically become THE main feature of my journal now for at least the near future.
*(and some franchises that are mainly here because they've had an official crossover with one I enjoy)
All that to say, this sticky entry is mainly just an index of the saved chats I've posted. I made a backdated entry for every character's saved chats, and this entry is where I link to all of them.

DISCLAIMER: Everything characters on Character.AI say is made up. They may get things wrong sometimes or give bad advice. Treat everything the AI says (in my saved chats and otherwise) as fiction even when it involves AIs based on real celebrities.
Sometimes Peach is a cat, sometimes Bulbasaur has a tail, sometimes Homsar is coherent, sometimes Daisy misspells the name of her own kingdom, sometimes Sheik apparently has a replica of the Blue Falcon - and those are just some of the obvious ones. Is Enya really a Homestar Runner fan? Is Enya's favorite pasta really what the AI of her told Mario it is?
It's possible to regenerate responses, which I do whenever I see something that's obviously inaccurate - but in some cases I don't because of one or more of the following:
1) I didn't know how to regenerate responses yet
2) I knew how to regenerate responses, but before I figured out that doing so too early in the conversation would often lead to more glitches - such as it putting in duplicates of one of the characters' greetings attributed to me, or characters reacting to their own messages as if the other character had said it
3) I didn't notice the inaccuracy soon enough
4) I got tired of regenerating the same message multiple times and just went with the best option I found
5) I don't know enough about the series to know if something is accurate or not (typically for series that I'm mainly including because of Super Smash Bros. or other official crossovers)
6) or I find the inaccuracy amusing enough to be worth leaving it in on purpose or think "nothing else about this scenario is normal so I may as well keep it in".
Also, not every chat I've saved went in the direction I wanted or expected it to go, so not everything in these saved chats is indicative of my own opinion. Nor is it necessarily indicative of what I think these celebrities' and fictional characters' opinions are.
So don't take anything these AIs say TOO seriously. Especially in earlier chats, ones pertaining to franchises I know less about, or ESPECIALLY especially ones pertaining to real celebrities.


With that out of the way, let's get right into it...
CHOOSE YOUR CHARACTER!!!
(Too bad there's not, like, a way to hear one of the Smash announcers call out the names of all these characters. OH WAIT. THERE TOTALLY IS.)

...Well, one more thing first: This list is currently UNDER CONSTRUCTION. Now that the old Character.AI site has been discontinued in September 2024, saved chats that were posted on the old site are no longer available. I took screenshots of all my saved chats beforehand and have started posting them and replacing the links accordingly, but I still have a long way to go on that update and I've actually been making new unposted chats faster than I've been reuploading or fixing the links to the old ones.
I previously modified this entry to only list the characters with at least one link fixed, but have now went back on this decision. The first section still consists only of characters with one or more chat reuploaded, but the rest of this entry has been reverted back to reflecting all 106 (or more?) characters.

Sorted by the last time I fixed a link to one of their chats:

Peach (chat 005 link fixed 1/1/25)
Bowser (chat 005 link fixed 1/1/25)
Jon (chat 004 link fixed 11/28/24)
Luigi (chat 004 link fixed 11/28/24)
Strong Bad (chat 002 link fixed 11/9/24)
Garfield (chat 002 link fixed 11/9/24)
Goomba (chat 137 link fixed 9/30/24)
Mario (chat 137 link fixed 9/30/24)
Zim (chat 001 link fixed 9/29/24)
Homestar (chat 003 link fixed 9/28/24)
Yoshi (chat 209 link did not need to be fixed)
Kirby (chat 209 link did not need to be fixed)
Samus (chat 209 link did not need to be fixed)


Sorted by date last used (including backlog of chats with not yet posted/fixed links):

Fox - January 29, 2025
Enya - January 29, 2025
Pikachu - January 29, 2025
Donkey Kong - January 29, 2025
Yoshi - January 29, 2025
Peach - January 29, 2025
Jon - January 29, 2025
Strong Bad - January 29, 2025
Garfield - January 29, 2025
Bowser - January 29, 2025
????????? - January 26, 2025
??????? - January 26, 2025
???????????? - January 25, 2025
Illusen - January 25, 2025
( More characters, sorting orders, and pointless stats under the cut! What could all these question marks mean?? )

Why can't I renew my paid account on LJ??? Each time I try it, my cart is emptied as though the transaction was successful, but it's not because I still don't have a paid account.

Anyone else experiencing this issue on LJ?

EDIT: I've been looking it up and it sounds like it will NEVER be possible to buy ANYTHING from the LJ shop ever again. :( Well, I guess this is gonna be my last entry on both LJ and DW then. No point in using LJ until the issue is fixed, and no point in using DW if I can't make my LJ consistent with it, and the issue will probably never be resolved.

Those of you who have known me for only three years or less may think a lot of my recent entries and comments were dumb and irrational and badly-worded and didn't make a lot of sense.

Well, you're not wrong. Several of my recent entries were dumb and irrational and badly-worded and didn't make a lot of sense. Not just coronavirus-related ones, either.

But (with a few exceptions) they're nothing compared to some of the entries newer readers may have missed.


So I suggest we try to put this in perspective. If you've only been reading my journal since 2017 or later, I recommend that you do the following:

1) Pick a random date between February 2009 (or August 2007, if you're REALLY daring!) and the day I became friends with you on LJ or DW.
2) Go to http://matt1993.livejournal.com/YYYY/MM/DD or http://matt1993.dreamwidth.org/YYYY/MM/DD for that day.
3) Marvel at just how STUPID those entries and my comments on them were! (Unless it turns out there weren't any for that day. Or you're lucky enough to find a good entry.) But do try to keep in mind what my age was at the time (I was born in 1993).
4) Optional: Let me know if you come across any that have broken links or broken images or something that I haven't fixed.
5) Repeat steps 1-4 until you're like "Maybe Matt's recent entries aren't that bad after all, for the most part..."

2019 calendar year in review... wow. It's been ten years since the first time I ever did this meme or knew that year in review memes were even a thing. I am old!

(For some reason I can't cross-post entries to LJ automatically anymore - it says that my IP address [or DW's?] is temporarily banned for exceeding the login failure rate. I had to post both copies manually. How did that happen?)

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Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2019. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review".

January 2019

It's 2019 now. So according to Vegas Stakes for the SNES (and Game Boy apparently), there's only one more year to go until it is OFFICIALLY the future!

February 2019

This was an awful week for me... I'd gotten behind on the project at work due to several circumstances outside my control (time off for bereavement; the systems I needed to do my work on all being used at once; my inability to stay focused for very long because of my autism), and had to work extra hours nearly every day this week to get caught up because I thought the deadline was this week.

March 2019

Okay, wow. Last month I posted an entry about how I'd had a rough few weeks but was too lazy to post a full entry about why those weeks were rough.

April 2019

Apparently, the most elaborate April Fools prank of all this year was how I totally tricked myself into thinking I would have a great day because it was April Fools' Day, but, APRIL FOOLS, that happened to also be the day I stumbled on SO MUCH STUFF on the Internet that upset me and made me feel like I'd be hated. :(

May 2019

Happy 10th anniversary apparently, DreamWidth!

June 2019

Was going to Disneyland worth the nearly a year of stress involved in planning it? Yes!

July 2019

Several very different things I've been meaning to post about for a while, in no particular order:

August 2019

Hey look, I'm finally posting another entry! How has everyone been?

(Wow. You'd NEVER guess from the first line alone that this was the entry where I first posted about the Sivir Incident.)

September 2019

Dear larsiusprime and anyone else who happens to be working on this Flash Player emulator:

October 2019

Oh man!!! Could this be the day that Nintendo FINALLY brings back Mary O.?!

November 2019

There's only 52 days left of 2019.

December 2019

I've been really anxious lately because I've been thinking more than usual about all the stupid things I've said and done in the past. To the point that I often have to stop whatever I'm doing just to repress my memories of them.

LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN LIVEJOURNAL IS DOWN AGAIN

THIS ENTRY DIDN'T EVEN CROSS-POST?!?!

EDIT: It's back up now. Phew!

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You are Matt1993!

As you sit at your computer writing a LiveJournal/DreamWidth entry about some dumb choose-your-own-adventure thingy that is probably going to only make sense in your head, you think to yourself:

"Wow, this year has gone by fast. How is it almost May already? How is it 2019 already?! This means the discontinuation of Flash is only eight months away! (Or possibly twenty months away. But Murphy's law implies "in 2020" means the beginning of 2020 rather than the end of it...)"

Several times now, you have considered putting your long, slow, epic journey to fix all of your LJ/DW entries so that they show up the way you want them to on hold for a while, because there's so many Flash cartoons you've never watched but wanted to watch someday that you may never get to see if you wait too long. Right now, more than ever, you start to think that might be a good idea - excluding outages that lasted less than a day, it's been over a year since the last time you actually thought LJ might shut down or become so glitched as to be unusable.

But on the other hand, you feel like since you actually have the motivation to fix your entries, maybe you should go ahead and keep working on that first.

On the other other hand, you don't have that much motivation to do either right now, so you think you'd feel better if you just gave up on all of that for a while and spent all your free time on video games for now.

What do you do?

If you choose to watch all the Flash cartoons you've wanted to watch, turn to page 2.

If you choose to finish fixing your entries, turn to page 3.

If you're feeling lazy and just want to play some video games, turn to page 4.

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(First off, unrelated to this entry, but before I forget: thanks everyone for all the well-wishes on my previous friends-only entry!)

Good news: I've finally fixed all my entries from 2007-2014!

Bad news: I MAY NEVER BE ABLE TO FIX ANY MORE. I'M UNABLE TO ACCESS ANY PAGE WHERE THE URL BEGINS WITH MATT1993.LIVEJOURNAL.COM. I can access any other page on LJ, including my inbox, etc. - JUST NOT MY OWN JOURNAL OR PROFILE.

I AM FREAKING OUT NOW. PLEASE FIX THIS SOON, LJ. I AM GOING TO STAY UP ALL NIGHT UNLESS THIS IS FIXED.

EDIT: My LJ actually started working again after about the second refresh after I posted this. But I left this entry as is until about 20 hours later because I thought it might stop working again. That, and I wanted to leave it up as a testament to how LJ and DW outages (especially ones that somehow only affect my own journal and profile) don't have to be very long before I panic and have to post entries like this one.

I'm done fixing all of my entries from 2013! (unless there's something I missed...) Just five more years' worth of entries (and then community entries and such...) to go! :D

Also, I got Super Smash Bros. Ultimate on Friday! Thanks, pathvain_aelien! :)