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Over the past week or so, my depression about the Forbidden Comment Threads, my ability to focus, my common sense, and my ability to speak without stumbling over words have all steadily gotten worse.
You know I've said how if I end up with too many creative vortexes stuck in my head at once, I might end up regressing? I think it's actually happening now, except most likely because of the Forbidden Comment Threads instead. I probably don't have much time left...
On some more positive notes:
( - SIX new quizzes!! )
- This is my 900th entry!!! At least it is if you include my glossary. If you don't, then my next entry (whatever it happens to be) will be the 900th.
- I changed the "# comments" and "Post a comment" text in my journal to say "I glued # blenders to my face" and "Is it Saturday night already?!" (both of which are a Garfield reference or - perhaps more famously - a Square Root of Minus Garfield reference). I've been considering changing that text ever since I took Ours Will You 1-Up down and thus made "I'm #-Up"/"Will me 1-Up" stand out as oddly-phrased. (Actually, it probably stood out like that even while OWY1U was up.) And now I finally did! I also changed the current mood text to "This mood coming through", another Garfield/SROMG reference.
Glue this entry to your journal! (well, probably not all, but maybe part of it)
You know I've said how if I end up with too many creative vortexes stuck in my head at once, I might end up regressing? I think it's actually happening now, except most likely because of the Forbidden Comment Threads instead. I probably don't have much time left...
On some more positive notes:
( - SIX new quizzes!! )
- This is my 900th entry!!! At least it is if you include my glossary. If you don't, then my next entry (whatever it happens to be) will be the 900th.
- I changed the "# comments" and "Post a comment" text in my journal to say "I glued # blenders to my face" and "Is it Saturday night already?!" (both of which are a Garfield reference or - perhaps more famously - a Square Root of Minus Garfield reference). I've been considering changing that text ever since I took Ours Will You 1-Up down and thus made "I'm #-Up"/"Will me 1-Up" stand out as oddly-phrased. (Actually, it probably stood out like that even while OWY1U was up.) And now I finally did! I also changed the current mood text to "This mood coming through", another Garfield/SROMG reference.
Glue this entry to your journal! (well, probably not all, but maybe part of it)
I am constantly befuddled at the fact that everywhere I look online, I see people who have the amazing ability to read/listen to/participate in online drama that looks like it might be tongue-in-cheek but isn't 100% certain to be so, and not only not experience mental trauma because of it, but actually enjoy it, to the point of starting it just because it's "fun".
I'm not talking about typical trolls; I'm talking about stuff like this (a discussion thread on SROMG #1222), this (a discussion thread on LMOO #486), and especially this. There's the chance that all three of those are tongue-in-cheek, but if there's a chance that they're not, then there's a chance that those people will overanalyze anything I write in the same way. They're probably not aware of it, but the possibly joking controversy that they "enjoy" completely ruins my life whenever I read it. If the more recent ones continue like they have been, they could ruin some of my favorite webcomics, too.
And even worse, I'm the only person I know of who's affected by it in this way. I might as well call it "Matt1993's Syndrome", since I must be the only person on Earth who has it. Andy Weir of Casey & Andy (a webcomic I discovered because there's a few links to it in Irregular Webcomic!) is the only other person I know of who doesn't like political webcomics, but even he clearly doesn't have Matt1993's Syndrome, as he didn't have any problem with working political discussions in the annotations and even a few of the comics. Don't get me wrong, most of the comics cheer me up, but there's also one that's so much like the Forbidden Comment Threads that I'm not even going to try and find it just so I won't have to read that one again.
And since I'm the only one with Matt1993's Syndrome, no one's ever going to advocate for the rights of those with it... :(
I'm not sure how much sense this makes, especially given that I wrote most of it in only 5-15 minutes. I just felt that I had to rant about it. At least if it doesn't make sense, it proves another point about Matt1993's Syndrome: people (or person, anyway) with it are unable to even talk about controversy without saying something stupid.
Rant at me for weeks about some statement in this post that, with context removed, looks offensive
I'm not talking about typical trolls; I'm talking about stuff like this (a discussion thread on SROMG #1222), this (a discussion thread on LMOO #486), and especially this. There's the chance that all three of those are tongue-in-cheek, but if there's a chance that they're not, then there's a chance that those people will overanalyze anything I write in the same way. They're probably not aware of it, but the possibly joking controversy that they "enjoy" completely ruins my life whenever I read it. If the more recent ones continue like they have been, they could ruin some of my favorite webcomics, too.
And even worse, I'm the only person I know of who's affected by it in this way. I might as well call it "Matt1993's Syndrome", since I must be the only person on Earth who has it. Andy Weir of Casey & Andy (a webcomic I discovered because there's a few links to it in Irregular Webcomic!) is the only other person I know of who doesn't like political webcomics, but even he clearly doesn't have Matt1993's Syndrome, as he didn't have any problem with working political discussions in the annotations and even a few of the comics. Don't get me wrong, most of the comics cheer me up, but there's also one that's so much like the Forbidden Comment Threads that I'm not even going to try and find it just so I won't have to read that one again.
And since I'm the only one with Matt1993's Syndrome, no one's ever going to advocate for the rights of those with it... :(
I'm not sure how much sense this makes, especially given that I wrote most of it in only 5-15 minutes. I just felt that I had to rant about it. At least if it doesn't make sense, it proves another point about Matt1993's Syndrome: people (or person, anyway) with it are unable to even talk about controversy without saying something stupid.
Rant at me for weeks about some statement in this post that, with context removed, looks offensive
FIVE YEARS ON LIVEJOURNAL!!!!!
Mon, Aug. 20th, 2012 14:00
Yep - I created my LJ account on August 19, 2007. Sad how the anniversary of LJ should happen to be the day after I accidentally deleted a lot of LJ-related stuff, though... in fact, I was so busy after that happened, I didn't get to finish this post until the day after the anniversary of my LJ. :(
I also wanted to include LJ comment stats (which I said I'd do every three months starting on the fourth anniversary, but ended up deciding to just do once every year), but since this post is already late, I'll post them later.
( First line of my first entry on or after the 19th of every month )
5post
I also wanted to include LJ comment stats (which I said I'd do every three months starting on the fourth anniversary, but ended up deciding to just do once every year), but since this post is already late, I'll post them later.
( First line of my first entry on or after the 19th of every month )
5post
(I finally posted it. Here goes nothing...)
(By the way,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pathvain_aelien and ellaina02, I added a few things after the proofreading)
What's sad is that recently-- Well, okay, not that recently, due to the long amount of time it took to write this entry, have it proofread, and continue to worry about whether or not it makes sense even after I had it proofread. But last October, I was hit with a realization similar to Character 15's, and I'm not even a randomly generated webcomic character.
( This post is so long, I'm even using lj-spoiler tags as lj-cuts )
Rant about the inevitable part of this entry that doesn't make sense
(By the way,
pathvain_aelien and ellaina02, I added a few things after the proofreading)What's sad is that recently-- Well, okay, not that recently, due to the long amount of time it took to write this entry, have it proofread, and continue to worry about whether or not it makes sense even after I had it proofread. But last October, I was hit with a realization similar to Character 15's, and I'm not even a randomly generated webcomic character.
( This post is so long, I'm even using lj-spoiler tags as lj-cuts )
Rant about the inevitable part of this entry that doesn't make sense
This wasn't what I expected
Sat, Mar. 10th, 2012 17:44Remember how yesterday I promised I'd start catching up on my friends page? Well, apparently, even though it's been 4 months since the Forbidden Comment Threads, just looking at my friends page (which I've removed posts in ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
asperger from) somehow made me worried that the same sort of drama will happen somewhere else on LJ soon (even while I read interesting/funny/cute posts, the back of my mind couldn't shake this feeling), and eventually sent me into depression that felt exactly the same as the depression I had during the Forbidden Comment Threads. I'm feeling better right now, but it's likely that, once again, I'll only feel okay during the day.
Oh, the things I do to stay in touch with you awesome people...
Rant about this
asperger from) somehow made me worried that the same sort of drama will happen somewhere else on LJ soon (even while I read interesting/funny/cute posts, the back of my mind couldn't shake this feeling), and eventually sent me into depression that felt exactly the same as the depression I had during the Forbidden Comment Threads. I'm feeling better right now, but it's likely that, once again, I'll only feel okay during the day.Oh, the things I do to stay in touch with you awesome people...
Rant about this
Various New Year memes
Sat, Dec. 31st, 2011 01:30
( #1 )
( #2 )
EDIT: Can't believe I forgot to say this last time, but this is my 800th entry!!! :D
Sum up YOUR 2011!
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EDIT: Can't believe I forgot to say this last time, but this is my 800th entry!!! :D
Sum up YOUR 2011!
Well, I finished my last final today! Yay!!! :D
I'd enjoy it more if I didn't still occasionally get depressed about what I've taken to calling the Forbidden Comment Threads even though I haven't even read them in the past two weeks, though :(
But yay for the semester being over!
Awesome! (these repost buttons are getting
less original by the minute...)
I'd enjoy it more if I didn't still occasionally get depressed about what I've taken to calling the Forbidden Comment Threads even though I haven't even read them in the past two weeks, though :(
But yay for the semester being over!
Awesome! (these repost buttons are getting
less original by the minute...)
