This wasn't what I expected

[matt1993]

Remember how yesterday I promised I'd start catching up on my friends page? Well, apparently, even though it's been 4 months since the Forbidden Comment Threads, just looking at my friends page (which I've removed posts in asperger from) somehow made me worried that the same sort of drama will happen somewhere else on LJ soon (even while I read interesting/funny/cute posts, the back of my mind couldn't shake this feeling), and eventually sent me into depression that felt exactly the same as the depression I had during the Forbidden Comment Threads. I'm feeling better right now, but it's likely that, once again, I'll only feel okay during the day.

Oh, the things I do to stay in touch with you awesome people...

Rant about this

Comments

[glowing-dragon.livejournal.com]

Oh, Matt... :(

There's drama everywhere on LJ and other online communities, it seems. It just sucks that you have to get caught up in this stuff. Seems as if you have a way of dealing with it in this case, though.

[matt1993]

Yeah...

I just wish online drama (even hypothetical future online drama) didn't make me so depressed! :(

I don't think I really have a way with dealing with it, unless I can declare every night to be non-canon...

[glowing-dragon.livejournal.com]

To me, there can be funny online drama - that is, if it doesn't happen to me or my good friends. I'm currently debating whether or not to take a break from a hockey group on FB because one of the mods used an offensive C-word to describe a Chinese soccer player this afternoon. Yeah, he's from Europe and doesn't understand these cultural things (despite his wife telling him OVER AND OVER), and it wasn't directed personally at me, but... *sigh*

Hahaha! That actually cheered me up! Maybe I can declare that mod comment non-canon! :D

[matt1993]

I rarely find any online drama funny. Sure, it doesn't make me depressed if it doesn't happen to me or anyone I know and it doesn't remind me of one of the times I actually have been in online drama for something stupid I've said, but unfortunately, with my ever-growing number of stupid comments, it's rare for this to apply to any other online drama. :(

[glowing-dragon.livejournal.com]

Fair enough. I can understand why you'd feel that way! :(

[matt1993]

Yeah... I've actually thought about going back through all the entries and comments I can find and finding out the exact percentage of my comments that are stupid, just so I can accurately say that I regret x% of my entries and comments. However much it is, I bet it's more than anyone else on LJ who isn't a troll... :(

[glowing-dragon.livejournal.com]

While I can appreciate why you'd want to do that (since I'm somewhat like that myself), do you think it would just depress you even more if you did such a thing?

[matt1993]

Not really. If less than 30% of my comments are stupid, it'll come as a surprise to me and make me feel better, and if not, I still wouldn't be any more depressed than I already am :)

[glowing-dragon.livejournal.com]

You know yourself better than I do, so I trust you on this one. :)

*hug*

[adawnrae.livejournal.com]

Cutie, that level of drama doesn't come along often, and when it does it is usually easily spotted if you want to avoid it.

Also, I think your idea of what constitutes a stupid comment is pretty harsh, at least when it comes to your own comments. Without perfect knowledge of a situation, none of us can avoid making mistakes, but that doesn't mean what we say is stupid, it just means that we have to act upon the limited understanding to which each of us is subject. The internet is packed full of real, jaw-dropping stupidity, but I haven't yet seen it from you. Well-meaning mistakes, on occasion, but not stupidity.

I'm sorry my comment reminded you of LJ drama. Please don't let it get you down, all that crap is just foolishness. ♥

Re: *hug*

[matt1993]

Sorry, I didn't mean that any of your comments reminded me of LJ drama. It's just the fear that something else will happen like that somewhere on LJ.

What's weird is that looking through my LJ friends page even without seeing anything similar to the Forbidden Comment Threads can now make me somewhat depressed, yet I have an idea for a Lightning Made of Owls comic that'll start out with a non-sequitur inspired by the Forbidden Comment Threads (don't worry, it won't be based on any actual comments there), and thinking about that doesn't make me depressed at all. It just goes to show how mixed-up my emotions are...

[pathvain-aelien.livejournal.com]

:(
Try not to let things get you down until they actually happen! Unfortunately, stuff like that is everywhere, so just try your best to ignore it and to spend time with things that make you laugh. :)

[matt1993]

If I could, I would. :(

Fortunately, for now I've gotten better about it...