The 2010s just called. They want my stupidity back.

[matt1993]

Those of you who have known me for only three years or less may think a lot of my recent entries and comments were dumb and irrational and badly-worded and didn't make a lot of sense.

Well, you're not wrong. Several of my recent entries were dumb and irrational and badly-worded and didn't make a lot of sense. Not just coronavirus-related ones, either.

But (with a few exceptions) they're nothing compared to some of the entries newer readers may have missed.


So I suggest we try to put this in perspective. If you've only been reading my journal since 2017 or later, I recommend that you do the following:

1) Pick a random date between February 2009 (or August 2007, if you're REALLY daring!) and the day I became friends with you on LJ or DW.
2) Go to http://matt1993.livejournal.com/YYYY/MM/DD or http://matt1993.dreamwidth.org/YYYY/MM/DD for that day.
3) Marvel at just how STUPID those entries and my comments on them were! (Unless it turns out there weren't any for that day. Or you're lucky enough to find a good entry.) But do try to keep in mind what my age was at the time (I was born in 1993).
4) Optional: Let me know if you come across any that have broken links or broken images or something that I haven't fixed.
5) Repeat steps 1-4 until you're like "Maybe Matt's recent entries aren't that bad after all, for the most part..."

Comments

[ayebydan]

That is not how it works. Better than before doesn't mean ok.

I'm proud of you for the progress you've made as a person but this comes across as using worse and harder times to excuse current times.

You have to own all times.

Anyway, I'd encourage you to look up New Zealand.They did the right thing and are beyond their curve with minimal damage. South Korea is also doing well.

[matt1993]

I'm not denying responsibility for current times. I'm just trying to demonstrate that, yes, I am trying to become a better person.

But right now I feel like no matter how hard I try to become a better person, it doesn't work. No one is perfect, but I feel like you're saying that if I'm not perfect, then I'm not good enough.

but this comes across as using worse and harder times to excuse current times.

This part comes across as criticizing the way I word things, which still upsets me because it implies that if I'm trying to be a good person, but I word things poorly (which is not something I have complete control over unless I have literally everything I say proofread), then I'm a bad person.

I know you say pretty often that I'm not a bad person. But after recent events, I feel like I have to ask you again. I feel like you're telling me I'm a bad person for wanting things to EVER be back to normal. (I know it's inadvisable for things to reopen right now, but I'm afraid that I'm a bad person for being depressed about the current situation. Depression is not something I have control over and not something I should be considered a bad person for. I have control over my actions (meltdowns notwithstanding) but not my emotions.)

Are things open again in New Zealand and South Korea?

[ayebydan]

I am not saying that.

That is not what I said or implied. You're not a bad person.

But your flist should not be a tool to simply tell you that.

I'm one person, thousands of miles away. Even if I did think you were ANY sort of person my thoughts DO NOT MATTER.

I DONT think you're bad but no one's online opinion matters. They don't KNOW YOU well at all.

They are not right now. But their death rates are minimal. So minimal. Look it up.