matt1993: (painbow)
2015-07-30 11:57 am

Lorem ipsum drama trigger depression bad memories, gloomy flame war controversy painbow amet. :(

(I hope I don't end up overusing this and my previous entry's style of subject line as much as I overused "When the End Times come, we will all <verb> the <Noun Phrase> of the Apocalypse" back in the day...)


One (I hope) last entry before I actually go through with changing my journal style, because I really don't want this to be the first thing I post about after I change it:


So, a couple of days ago, I Googled "overcoming stress" and found some of these articles, which led me to the rest even though they're not all necessarily about stress:

http://lifehacker.com/5976310/nine-strategies-successful-people-use-to-overcome-stress
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/stress/stress-management.htm
http://lifehacker.com/5945018/to-succeed-forget-self-esteem
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/how-to-stop-worrying.htm
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/07/11/10-practical-ways-to-handle-stress/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201406/overcome-stress-saying-thanks
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/culture-shrink/201507/6-helpful-things-say-depressed-person
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201507/the-secret-reason-so-many-us-procrastinate
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201502/love-yourself-you-love-others
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/07/22/learning-to-let-go-of-past-hurts-5-ways-to-move-on/#at_pco=tst-1.0&at_si=55b8220dbf8b4d99&at_ab=per-2&at_pos=1&at_tot=2
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/2013/12/10-signs-you-are-emotionally-attached-to-a-negative-past/

These helped me feel a LOT better!... at first.

Then I got to these:

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/04/09/invisible-victims-when-men-are-abused/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/02/11/beware-of-she-wolves/

When I read these, they resonated REALLY well with how I felt about the Forbidden Comment Threads! I thought my depression would be over for good!

...at first.

But then I read the comments on the last two articles. Now, despite having at one point almost completely gotten over my worry about suddenly being hated by everyone, even you guys, if I don't word something very well or it gets misread, I'm now back where I started. Because the comments on those articles suggest - no, prove - that I am a horrible, pathetic excuse for a human being just for feeling the way I feel about the Forbidden Comment Threads. And that I can never be forgiven for ANYTHING. :(

Show your friends what
a horrible person I am
matt1993: (pass)
2014-05-07 07:18 pm

Thought I wasn't going to post again until the Forbidden Comment Threads freeze over, didn't you? ;)

Sorry I haven't been able to post in a while. That semester was so intense, I rarely even had enough free time to complain about it on LiveJournal!

I'm gonna go ahead and assume that a) everything I know on LJ except my journal has dramatically changed in the time that I haven't posted, just like it did the last time I went a month or so without posting, and b) I'm not going to be able to adequately make up for the lack of posts. But I guess I'll try anyway by posting how I generally felt about each class:

And sorry for forgetting to put a LJ-cut at first :( )

And... that's about all I can do to catch up on posting for now. I'd have posted more quiz/meme reruns if I'd done any quizzes or memes between 5 years before my last entry and 5 years before this entry, but as it is, the next one's still not until the 14th.

Disprove the result "If this entry has
anything you'd want to repost, then
18 is prime"
matt1993: (2010 nnwm procrastinator)
2013-12-17 12:15 am
Entry tags:

Who's on first?

I can't believe it - I finished the creative vortex poll I mentioned I've been working on!!

cut for LOTS of length )

I hope the poll shows up...

EDIT: It did, but I accidentally put "Finish rereading" as an option when it should've been "Finish rereading therapy notes" and I can't change it now. Oh well.

Have a surprisingly good reason to repost this
matt1993: (Default)
2012-12-22 10:40 pm

Hey! These work again!

On the twelfth day of Christmas, matt1993 sent to me...
Twelve prophecies drumming
Eleven screenshots piping
Ten computers a-leaping
Nine lemonheads dancing
Eight physics a-compromising
Seven fractals a-drawing
Six crossovers a-programming
Five di-i-i-inosaur comics
Four weird dreams
Three mortal instruments
Two backwards lyrics
...and a mario in a suicidal bunny.
Get your own Twelve Days:


I never knew that it could replace the verbs too until now. ("Six crossovers a-programming")

In 2013, matt1993 resolves to...
Backup my mezzacotta regularly.
Stop compromising with alien_infinity.
Take princesskitu drawing.
Apply for a new math.
Find a better inflation.
Go to nonpartisanship every Sunday.
Get your own New Year's Resolutions:


I could definitely use a new math, since I'm no longer good at the old math!

----

In other news, about a year ago today I got over my depression about the Forbidden Comment Threads just in time for Christmas, and in fact, got over it for the longest period of time so far; in fact, at the time I'd thought I'd gotten over it completely. But now I'm not only still depressed about it about half of the time, I'm also depressed about anything that even vaguely reminds me of the Forbidden Comment Threads (and now, many more things fall under this category), and just as much as when the Forbidden Comment Threads were actually happening. So I don't see myself nearly overcoming it again this year. I'll probably be happier on Christmas Day, but aside from the fact that I'm still not depressed every moment of my life, that's it. :(

Thanks for ruining my life, [livejournal.com profile] asperger. And commenters in [livejournal.com profile] news. And the Facebook group I Have a LiveJournal!. And too many more things to name.