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[matt1993]

(I hope I don't end up overusing this and my previous entry's style of subject line as much as I overused "When the End Times come, we will all <verb> the <Noun Phrase> of the Apocalypse" back in the day...)


One (I hope) last entry before I actually go through with changing my journal style, because I really don't want this to be the first thing I post about after I change it:


So, a couple of days ago, I Googled "overcoming stress" and found some of these articles, which led me to the rest even though they're not all necessarily about stress:

http://lifehacker.com/5976310/nine-strategies-successful-people-use-to-overcome-stress
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/stress/stress-management.htm
http://lifehacker.com/5945018/to-succeed-forget-self-esteem
http://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/how-to-stop-worrying.htm
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2011/07/11/10-practical-ways-to-handle-stress/
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201406/overcome-stress-saying-thanks
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/culture-shrink/201507/6-helpful-things-say-depressed-person
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/evolution-the-self/201507/the-secret-reason-so-many-us-procrastinate
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-path-passionate-happiness/201502/love-yourself-you-love-others
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/07/22/learning-to-let-go-of-past-hurts-5-ways-to-move-on/#at_pco=tst-1.0&at_si=55b8220dbf8b4d99&at_ab=per-2&at_pos=1&at_tot=2
http://blogs.psychcentral.com/nlp/2013/12/10-signs-you-are-emotionally-attached-to-a-negative-past/

These helped me feel a LOT better!... at first.

Then I got to these:

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/04/09/invisible-victims-when-men-are-abused/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2014/02/11/beware-of-she-wolves/

When I read these, they resonated REALLY well with how I felt about the Forbidden Comment Threads! I thought my depression would be over for good!

...at first.

But then I read the comments on the last two articles. Now, despite having at one point almost completely gotten over my worry about suddenly being hated by everyone, even you guys, if I don't word something very well or it gets misread, I'm now back where I started. Because the comments on those articles suggest - no, prove - that I am a horrible, pathetic excuse for a human being just for feeling the way I feel about the Forbidden Comment Threads. And that I can never be forgiven for ANYTHING. :(

Show your friends what
a horrible person I am

Comments

[eccentricrabbit.livejournal.com]

Not many humans have a forgiving nature. This doesn't make you a bad person - or your mistakes unforgivable. It's a fatal flaw of humanity.

I look at abused animals who forgive humans of their abuse/neglect... and trust them again... and wish humans were the same.

To be honest I'm sure what you did was not as 'bad' as you think. I'm sure they don't hate you... perhaps it just feels that way to you? If you said something you didn't mean then apologize and walk away... if you said something you DID mean and people took offense? Well that's not your problem - it's theirs!

[matt1993]

This doesn't make you a bad person - or your mistakes unforgivable. It's a fatal flaw of humanity.

To be honest I'm sure what you did was not as 'bad' as you think. I'm sure they don't hate you... perhaps it just feels that way to you? If you said something you didn't mean then apologize and walk away... if you said something you DID mean and people took offense? Well that's not your problem - it's theirs!

:) This is what I usually try to tell myself whenever I'm getting worried about suddenly being hated for ANYTHING. Sometimes I'm able to convince myself not to worry so much... sometimes I can't. :(

[eccentricrabbit.livejournal.com]

I get that. I can't even follow my own advice most of the time either. ;)

[matt1993]

;)