matt1993 | Sun, Dec. 30th, 2018

So depressed right now. I don't think I'm gonna be able to sleep tonight because today I found out that yet another YouTube channel I'd found out about (thanks to Quidd) and kinda wanted to check out eventually is controversial - SSSniperWolf. And knowing about this makes me keep thinking about the Etika and cobanermani456 things again and worrying that I'll be hated for liking any of these channels, or wanting to see more of their videos (or any of their videos, as I haven't actually watched SSSniperWolf yet). Same thing with YouTube channels that became controversial before this year like PewdiePie and JonTron...

Are any of you going to dislike or judge me for wanting to see these channels? If not, please say so even if you feel like you'd be repeating something you've already said. I can't take this depression much longer...

Could someone more emotionally stable than me please research what these controversies are really all about and tell me what actually happened? (EDIT: I should clarify, I mean aside from the PewdiePie and JonTron ones as I think I know what those were about... but is it lame that I had no idea until I asked someone about those?) I've tried looking them up myself but didn't get far because a) it made me depressed easily and b) I know that I'm going to hear at least two sides to each story and not know which one is actually true, and be hated if I think the one that isn't true is true (which I'm told I have done already regarding cobanermani456).

It's hard to describe this journal in just a few paragraphs... but I'll try

Just an autistic guy born in 1993 (hence the username) who's had this journal since I was 14. Has trouble phrasing things well especially in earlier entries, so keep that in mind.

My interests have fluctuated in the 17 years since I've had this journal, but the following has remained constant:
- I like Mario games (mainly the platformers, Mario Kart, Mario Party) and Super Smash Bros.
- I like Garfield
- I like Homestar Runner
- I like Enya
- And I've always loved the idea of wacky crossovers between ANY of my interests, whether it's in the form of a short-lived webcomic in 2006-2008, a short-lived backwards lyrics site in 2008, writing down weird dreams in 2009-2011, playing Tomodachi Life a lot in 2014-2016, or what most of my posts are about these days: playing around with Character.AI starting in 2023. I still can't believe I'm actually in a world where an AI of Enya can talk to AIs of Mario or Garfield or even my favorite obscure characters like Mary O. from Super Mario Maker. :O

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