WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?

[matt1993]

(First off, unrelated to this entry, but before I forget: thanks everyone for all the well-wishes on my previous friends-only entry!)

Good news: I've finally fixed all my entries from 2007-2014!

Bad news: I MAY NEVER BE ABLE TO FIX ANY MORE. I'M UNABLE TO ACCESS ANY PAGE WHERE THE URL BEGINS WITH MATT1993.LIVEJOURNAL.COM. I can access any other page on LJ, including my inbox, etc. - JUST NOT MY OWN JOURNAL OR PROFILE.

I AM FREAKING OUT NOW. PLEASE FIX THIS SOON, LJ. I AM GOING TO STAY UP ALL NIGHT UNLESS THIS IS FIXED.

EDIT: My LJ actually started working again after about the second refresh after I posted this. But I left this entry as is until about 20 hours later because I thought it might stop working again. That, and I wanted to leave it up as a testament to how LJ and DW outages (especially ones that somehow only affect my own journal and profile) don't have to be very long before I panic and have to post entries like this one.

Comments

[ayebydan]

I certainly hope you went to bed. It will just have been another outage on lj, just as dw crashed earlier in the week. I'm sure you will be able to continue with your editing soon enough.

[matt1993]

Turns out it actually started working again on like the second refresh I tried after I posted this entry. But still, it HAD been consistently not working - for only my own journal and profile, for some reason - for a few minutes, which was long enough to make me freak out and have to post an entry like this one.

I did stay up until 1 or 2 in the morning to fix some more entries but I went to bed after that.

[ayebydan]

You should mention this to your therapist.

It is notable that such a thing made you go from what seems to be 0-100 when it did work soon after.

The internet is always going to fail in spots and sites are always going to crash. Dreamwidth is specially vulnerable when there are huge leaps of 'refugees' from tumblr, lj' latest fails for example as they only buy the space they need online when they need it, but all sites are the same.

[matt1993]

The internet is always going to fail in spots and sites are always going to crash. Dreamwidth is specially vulnerable when there are huge leaps of 'refugees' from tumblr, lj' latest fails for example as they only buy the space they need online when they need it, but all sites are the same.

True... it's just that so many websites I like have went down entirely over the past few years, or have at least have parts of them go down (e.g. certain YouTube channels). So I get very anxious any time there's a chance that this has happened again, especially if the site in question is LJ.

[ayebydan]

That is the internet. 90% of the fandom sites I grew up in as a fandomer are gone. Fandom is not a safe platform for reliability in that way. Your ljs, ijs, dw,s tumblrs, twitter, instagrams ect are always going to crash. And youtube is always going to change its rules on what it likes and when. And while you are one to preserve everything other creators grow to cringe and so delete their content on mess.

You really need to find a long term way to cope with that.

You have this huge warning about your imported journal. I am 99.9% sure the only person that cares about the issues with that is you. No one else is looking back or worrying. Everyone expects userpic to fail sooner rather than later because we change things.

You are hurting yourself and you don't need to. It saddens me to see.

[matt1993]

And while you are one to preserve everything other creators grow to cringe and so delete their content on mess.

I haven't always been one to preserve everything - in the past I've deleted things I'd made because I didn't like them as much anymore, but now I'm wishing I hadn't deleted them so I could look back on them - they may not have been so bad after all, and even if they were I'd rather know that for a fact.

I started realizing this before I became active on LJ, so for that reason, I never delete any entry in my journal no matter how cringey I think is (with a few rare exceptions like testing a LJ/DW feature or accidentally posting an entry to the wrong place), and it's rare for me to even decide that something I wrote is so cringeworthy that I should go ahead and delete that part of an entry but leave the rest. This doesn't mean I never think anything I write is cringeworthy - I feel that way about a LOT of things I wrote in the past - it just means that I know if I delete something, there's likely going to be a time that I want/need to go back and see what it said but won't be able to.

And I also know that if I delete one entry, I'm likely going to end up deleting a LOT more entries for similar reasons and end up with only 30 or so entries remaining. This happened to me before with a webcomic I used to write, when I removed the strips I felt didn't make any sense and that ended up being nearly all of them.

You have this huge warning about your imported journal. I am 99.9% sure the only person that cares about the issues with that is you. No one else is looking back or worrying. Everyone expects userpic to fail sooner rather than later because we change things.

That may be true, but I still want the 0.1% of people who might look at entries in others' journals from years ago just for the fun of it (and therefore might happen to pick entries in my DW I haven't fixed yet... or alternately might find them because I link to them in newer entries, because I link to past entries a lot) to be aware that entries I haven't fixed yet might not make sense.

I guess I'm just weird that way.

[matt1993]

And now I'm even more depressed because one of the several videos in this entry is gone now because the YouTube channel was terminated. I know I shouldn't feel so disappointed because there's so many other videos like these and 13 of the 14 I embedded in that entry are still there, but I'm still sad to know that that one specific video is gone now. I don't even know if I thought it was one of the funniest ones or anything like that, but not knowing that is what's disappointing me.

This is why I worry so much about every YouTube channel I like or have seen one video on that I liked or whatever going down... because that keeps happening!