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Sat, Jan. 1st, 2022 22:56![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matt1993
Merry belated Christmas and happy slightly belated new year!
So far 2022 doesn't feel much different. Because I've slept through probably at least 80% of 2022 so far. My sleep schedule is so messed up right now that I've been going to bed anywhere from 2 AM to 9 AM every day and getting up anywhere from 5:30 PM to 10 PM. And the days I get up earlier than 8-9 PM are only because I have something scheduled for that time specifically like a counseling session.
I can't believe I had this entire break to fix my sleep schedule, but I was unable to. Even when I WASN'T so depressed that I couldn't feel any joy whatsoever.
A few months ago I was so depressed about the pandemic that I decided to intentionally get a lot more sleep every night, for two reasons: A) To catch up on sleep. B) Because I want to fast-forward to when the pandemic is completely over because that's the only way my depression can end, and the closest thing I can do is sleep more so that it doesn't FEEL like I'm waiting as long.
But... it wasn't supposed to end up like this. I was still intending to sleep at NIGHT rather than during the day. I've given up on trying to fix my sleep schedule because it's just not gonna happen.
I know I haven't posted about my Christmas presents yet (I still don't think I've done so for LAST Christmas, even). Or my annual Wordle Year in Review for 2020 OR 2021. Or LJ comment stats for 2020 or 2021. Hopefully I'll get those done eventually.
So far 2022 doesn't feel much different. Because I've slept through probably at least 80% of 2022 so far. My sleep schedule is so messed up right now that I've been going to bed anywhere from 2 AM to 9 AM every day and getting up anywhere from 5:30 PM to 10 PM. And the days I get up earlier than 8-9 PM are only because I have something scheduled for that time specifically like a counseling session.
I can't believe I had this entire break to fix my sleep schedule, but I was unable to. Even when I WASN'T so depressed that I couldn't feel any joy whatsoever.
A few months ago I was so depressed about the pandemic that I decided to intentionally get a lot more sleep every night, for two reasons: A) To catch up on sleep. B) Because I want to fast-forward to when the pandemic is completely over because that's the only way my depression can end, and the closest thing I can do is sleep more so that it doesn't FEEL like I'm waiting as long.
But... it wasn't supposed to end up like this. I was still intending to sleep at NIGHT rather than during the day. I've given up on trying to fix my sleep schedule because it's just not gonna happen.
I know I haven't posted about my Christmas presents yet (I still don't think I've done so for LAST Christmas, even). Or my annual Wordle Year in Review for 2020 OR 2021. Or LJ comment stats for 2020 or 2021. Hopefully I'll get those done eventually.