Rejection sensitive dysphoria, part 2

[matt1993]

First off, did anyone see my previous entry? I say it's worth a read, since that entry serves as an explanation for the majority of my past entries, probably the majority of my future entries, and basically my entire personality. If you've ever wondered "why does Matt1993 _____?", that entry probably explains it.

I also came across this video today and it resonated with me very well:

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I've been in the red a LOT lately last year, and sometimes even this year. A lot of my latest entries were unfortunately written while I was in the red. :(

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[cactus_rs]

One of my high school friends now has a career writing about ADHD (she has it, as does her husband and son) and she brought this up before, so it's vaguely familiar to me. It's easier to deal with things when you can at least put a name on them, hopefully!

[matt1993]

I wish I'd known there was a term for this years ago! I remember several years ago when I reflected on how I seem to be the only one who gets this anxious about the possibility of anyone hating me or thinking I'm offensive for any reason, and called it "Matt1993's Syndrome" because I seem to be the only one this anxious about it. I believe even my 2013-2019 counselor has told me that he's never encountered anyone who worries as much as I do. So it's nice to find out I'm not the only one after all! :)

I wonder if I have ADD or ADHD... I do have difficulty paying attention, so I've always wondered, but I've never been officially diagnosed with ADD or ADHD as far as I know. Just autism. (Or possibly Asperger's. I always forget which one I'm officially diagnosed with.)

When your friend brought this up before, did you think it sounded like me? And if so, has there been any other time that something someone brought up reminded you of me? Just wondering. :)