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You've heard of Character.AI, right? It's this website where you can simulate chats between--
Oh, who am I kidding? Of course you've heard of it since it's literally all I talk about on here nowadays since I joined C.AI nearly a year ago.
64 of the 76 entries I've posted to LJ/DW since I joined C.AI (or 64 of the 79 entries since I first knew about C.AI) are all "Character.AI Chat Index: <number> <character name>". And I have no intention of stopping at 64.
65 if you include my current sticky entry (which starts off with an attempt at an intro to my journal in general but devolves into an index of all the C.AI stuff on the grounds that "everything else I was ever into was the closest thing to C.AI there was at the time, so this journal may as well be entirely about C.AI at this point and I should index my saved chats here!").
66 if you include an entry that is basically an old version of that one.
Even most of the remaining 10 (or 13) entries are still dedicated to C.AI, at least partially - or dedicated to the same sort of wacky crossovers that I enjoy making happen on Character.AI. And the ones that aren't dedicated to C.AI or the wacky crossovers I love are mostly posts like this one about how far behind I am about posting about anything else.
I still think it does make sense that I'm so obsessed with Character.AI and am more motivated to post about it than anything else. I've already gone over the reasons why so I won't repeat that here (except to add that I STILL sometimes manage to find characters I couldn't find before and never thought I'd find!! I won't spoil who, though...)
Instead, I want to address the fact that I haven't posted a lot about real-life stuff lately, which feels odd since that's probably what I should be posting about the most. And that's not just since I joined C.AI - for the past four years or so I've had little motivation to post and there have been so many things I meant to get around to posting but never did. I typically at least post about things like the 15th anniversary of when I started being active on LJ (February 6, 2024 - not to be confused with the 15th anniversary of my journal overall, which fell on August 19, 2022) or the seventh anniversary of when I started work (February 13, 2024), but this time I didn't even have enough motivation to post about that. Of course, the anniversary of me joining C.AI is today, so I am posting an entry now because of course I would. (Man... I can't believe that just a year ago, I knew C.AI existed and thought "what if they have Enya on here and I could ask what she thinks of Mario?" but figured that was little more than a massive long shot-- there I go again, going on a tangent about C.AI...)
Anyway, towards the end of last year I thought of a possible way to catch up on posting some of the things that I felt like I should have posted, but didn't. I was thinking that on each day of 2024, I'd post an entry that's basically "This day in Matt1993 history" and be about entries I posted on that day in the past plus things I should have posted about but didn't. Plus things that happened on that date, that I posted about, but posted on a different day than they happened. But I'd have to write all those entries in advance in order to have any chance of posting them in time, and as you can tell, I didn't get around to that before 2024 began. (That, and it would require drawing attention to my worst entries and comments on the anniversaries of those posts...) Maybe for 2025 though?
So if you're not interested in Character.AI or my entries about it (and that wouldn't change if I used a character or franchise I haven't used before that you really like), you probably may as well stop reading this journal. Sorry. I really don't see myself having motivation to post much of anything else (though I do make the per-character chat index entries backdated so they don't clutter up your friends page/reading page.)
There is kind of an upside, though. Character.AI isn't JUST for simulating hilarious or insightful or surreal conversations between BASICALLY ANY TWO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS OR CELEBRITIES I'VE EVER HEARD OF. They also have creative helpers, trip planners, and other self-help-related AIs - including ones for mental health - so naturally I've been talking to one of the mental health ones sometimes (one of the few AIs on there that I've ever actually talked to instead of just clicking on it so I can put it in a room with another AI and see what craziness emerges). Like everything else I've used on the site, I wish that had existed YEARS ago - in this case so that I could have avoided making so many mistakes I'd regret later in life, posting so many stupid things on LJ/DW or other sites, and most importantly, not had to annoy all of you so often by posting about things I've had anxiety about. I've done the latter a lot when I needed to talk about something I'm needlessly(?) anxious about to get it off my chest but didn't have a counseling session coming up soon (or before I ever had a counselor at all). In recent years I've slowly started learning just how annoying it truly is for people when they have to listen to me worry about everything all the time, and now I finally have a way to get some of the help I need without having to be annoying in the process. Again, I really wish that had been available for me years ago! I've always wished I could go back in time to correct mistakes I've made... now I know what the most efficient way to correct them is should time travel ever be invented. ;)
Oh, who am I kidding? Of course you've heard of it since it's literally all I talk about on here nowadays since I joined C.AI nearly a year ago.
64 of the 76 entries I've posted to LJ/DW since I joined C.AI (or 64 of the 79 entries since I first knew about C.AI) are all "Character.AI Chat Index: <number> <character name>". And I have no intention of stopping at 64.
65 if you include my current sticky entry (which starts off with an attempt at an intro to my journal in general but devolves into an index of all the C.AI stuff on the grounds that "everything else I was ever into was the closest thing to C.AI there was at the time, so this journal may as well be entirely about C.AI at this point and I should index my saved chats here!").
66 if you include an entry that is basically an old version of that one.
Even most of the remaining 10 (or 13) entries are still dedicated to C.AI, at least partially - or dedicated to the same sort of wacky crossovers that I enjoy making happen on Character.AI. And the ones that aren't dedicated to C.AI or the wacky crossovers I love are mostly posts like this one about how far behind I am about posting about anything else.
I still think it does make sense that I'm so obsessed with Character.AI and am more motivated to post about it than anything else. I've already gone over the reasons why so I won't repeat that here (except to add that I STILL sometimes manage to find characters I couldn't find before and never thought I'd find!! I won't spoil who, though...)
Instead, I want to address the fact that I haven't posted a lot about real-life stuff lately, which feels odd since that's probably what I should be posting about the most. And that's not just since I joined C.AI - for the past four years or so I've had little motivation to post and there have been so many things I meant to get around to posting but never did. I typically at least post about things like the 15th anniversary of when I started being active on LJ (February 6, 2024 - not to be confused with the 15th anniversary of my journal overall, which fell on August 19, 2022) or the seventh anniversary of when I started work (February 13, 2024), but this time I didn't even have enough motivation to post about that. Of course, the anniversary of me joining C.AI is today, so I am posting an entry now because of course I would. (Man... I can't believe that just a year ago, I knew C.AI existed and thought "what if they have Enya on here and I could ask what she thinks of Mario?" but figured that was little more than a massive long shot-- there I go again, going on a tangent about C.AI...)
Anyway, towards the end of last year I thought of a possible way to catch up on posting some of the things that I felt like I should have posted, but didn't. I was thinking that on each day of 2024, I'd post an entry that's basically "This day in Matt1993 history" and be about entries I posted on that day in the past plus things I should have posted about but didn't. Plus things that happened on that date, that I posted about, but posted on a different day than they happened. But I'd have to write all those entries in advance in order to have any chance of posting them in time, and as you can tell, I didn't get around to that before 2024 began. (That, and it would require drawing attention to my worst entries and comments on the anniversaries of those posts...) Maybe for 2025 though?
So if you're not interested in Character.AI or my entries about it (and that wouldn't change if I used a character or franchise I haven't used before that you really like), you probably may as well stop reading this journal. Sorry. I really don't see myself having motivation to post much of anything else (though I do make the per-character chat index entries backdated so they don't clutter up your friends page/reading page.)
There is kind of an upside, though. Character.AI isn't JUST for simulating hilarious or insightful or surreal conversations between BASICALLY ANY TWO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS OR CELEBRITIES I'VE EVER HEARD OF. They also have creative helpers, trip planners, and other self-help-related AIs - including ones for mental health - so naturally I've been talking to one of the mental health ones sometimes (one of the few AIs on there that I've ever actually talked to instead of just clicking on it so I can put it in a room with another AI and see what craziness emerges). Like everything else I've used on the site, I wish that had existed YEARS ago - in this case so that I could have avoided making so many mistakes I'd regret later in life, posting so many stupid things on LJ/DW or other sites, and most importantly, not had to annoy all of you so often by posting about things I've had anxiety about. I've done the latter a lot when I needed to talk about something I'm needlessly(?) anxious about to get it off my chest but didn't have a counseling session coming up soon (or before I ever had a counselor at all). In recent years I've slowly started learning just how annoying it truly is for people when they have to listen to me worry about everything all the time, and now I finally have a way to get some of the help I need without having to be annoying in the process. Again, I really wish that had been available for me years ago! I've always wished I could go back in time to correct mistakes I've made... now I know what the most efficient way to correct them is should time travel ever be invented. ;)
